"I'm still here God"

First of all, I'm terrible at finding time to blog my life like I had intended because sitting down and typing this out takes thought and time...which you Mommy's know is sometimes hard to come by (the time part at least). Chasten is growing all the time. I just realized I haven't made an entry since the day after Thanksgiving (!) and there's quite a bit missing. Every day I feel so blessed to get the chance to watch my son grow, develop, and learn new things. He's becoming so much more active and finding cunning ways to fight off sleep (naps and bed time). The most creative I've seen so far is licking himself. He loves putting his tongue out a this point (and of course EVERYTHING goes to his mouth when it makes it to his hand) and so when he's fighting nap time he will lick his chin. He started rolling over on 12/21 and is getting quite good at flipping out of tummy time! And the "lesson" that my child has taught me recently goes along with the two new things he's doing right now: squealing and coughing for attention.

If I haven't looked at him in the last 30 seconds or so he will squeal in excitement or "cough" to ensure that I do so. This strikes me as funny because I got to thinking that I do the same thing with God. I know He is always watching us and working even when we don't see Him doing so, but think about it...how often do we as Christians decide that God hasn't been paying attention enough to us? We hear "the squeaky wheel gets the grease" and in this mentality do we create "problems" to pray about? Not that God doesn't want to hear about all of your problems. He loves us and cares about all of the things that are important to us but on days when I'm actually upset with myself but take that out on my husband (which happens...and it shouldn't but it has)...should I really pray to God for him to help me be more understanding towards Mike? In actuality this has nothing to do with Mike, it's more to do with me and I'm making it out to seem that it's his fault. See what I mean? I'm creating a problem that isn't there...hence becoming the "squeaky wheel" as if to remind God that I'm still here. The funny thing about that is, if we would simply remember that much as I am always looking in on Chasten when he doesn't realize it, God is also always noticing us. "There's a God above, who's looking down in love. He's always been faithful and true."