Love of a Parent

I've been a blogging slacker. You'd think that I would have time to spend ten minutes and blog as a stay at home Mommy, but you'd be wrong. Moving on...Chasten is growing so much. He's officially three months old now and loves to sit and play. He kicks his little legs, throws his arm, coos/goos, giggles and smiles up a storm. He's also started studying things quite a bit. He often goes cross-eyed examining his fingers before he very adamantly shoves his hand into his mouth. Naps are getting to be somewhat regular during the day, though the schedule doesn't stay the same every day (for instance today we took one 15 minute nap verses the two one hour naps we usually have)...but that just means more play time for Mommy.

Mom and I were talking on the phone the other day and she sparked a thought in my mind. She made the comment "Now that you're a Mom, do you finally understand why I've always told you that my love for you was inexplicably unconditional?" I, of course, responded with "Yes." Later that evening I thought on something that I have pondered before but came to a conclusion. Just as I never fully understood my mother's statement until I became a parent, I also never fully understood the sacrifice God made for us until the same moment. I look at my son and overflow with love and joy. He is truly the greatest miracle God has ever given to me. When I look at him, I instantly know I will do ANYTHING possible to keep him from harm and pain. So think for a moment about how hard it must have been for God to send his only son to Earth to live apart from him for 30+ years knowing he was sending him to be tortured and killed. Knowing that the only way to save the rest of us would be to allow his son to be slandered, betrayed, beaten, have his flesh ripped open, and crucified. This to me sounds like one of the most painful deaths that could be imagined and still knowing all of this, He sent him anyway. How humbled I am to finally TRULY realize how hard that would be...how impossibly tormenting. What a blessed people we are to have such a wonderful Savior. I pray that I will always be able to sacrifice of myself in the same way for my son. That I would always be able to set aside my own wants and desires in order to provide what's best for him. What am awesome God we serve.